“Some have food but cannot eat, Some can eat but have no food. We have food and we can eat, Glory be to Thee oh Lord. Amen…”
James sang his usual chant quickly, before diving into his delicious meal.
I watched him closely as he began devouring his meal, unaware of the deep meaning of his words; after all he was just a little boy repeating what he was taught.
The joy that filled his smile as he looked up at me enjoying his meal, made me shed a tear.
“Mom, why are you crying?” The innocent little boy asked me, with a confused look on his face.
I wiped away my tear and put on a smile for him. And he smiled right back at me as he continued to eat, forgetting that he just saw a tear on my cheek. Children, such precious gems.
“Some have food, but cannot eat…” I whispered softly to myself.
Three months ago, James recovered from a serious illness that prevented him from eating naturally. Though we had enough money, he couldn’t eat food like normal people do. He had supplements passed into his body through pipes, to enable him survive. It was really a hard period for us. I only ate late at night or early in the morning, but never in front of my little sad boy.
“Some can eat, but have no food…” I said, as another drop of tear fell from my eyes.
The month when he miraculously recovered turned out to be the same month we ran out of money, as James’s health bills took a toll on me financially. My husband left us since he was tired of all the stress, but I couldn’t leave my son to die. He could finally eat but I had no food to offer him, rather we survived by eating crumps that fell from people’s tables.
“We have food, and we can eat…” I manage to say, as my eyes were already heavy with tears at this point.
Just last month, I happened to encounter the Lord. I knew him ever since but during hard times which questioned my faith, I drifted away from Him. But coming back to Him fully, made me realize that He never really left… He spared my son’s life, who am I not to be grateful for that? I look at James, who is now licking the surface of his plate, to ensure he leaves no piece of food uneaten, and I smile in between all my tears. If I hadn’t met Him, I wonder if I’d have been able to say these last words of the chant, with all my heart and with a knowledge of the true meaning,
“Glory be to thee oh Lord, Amen.” I say loudly as I fall on my knees, soaked in tears.
“Mummy, are you okay?” James asks worriedly.
I look up and see him kneeling next to me and he tries to clean the tears off my face.
I join him to clean my face and with my shaky voice I say to him, “I’m just so happy JayJay, can we sing Some have food… again?”
He smiled at me. “Okay mummy, if it’ll make you stop crying.”
I laugh at his words, “Yes, I won’t cry again.”
With his arms around my neck, James and I sang softly, “Some have food but cannot eat, Some can eat but have no food. We have food and we can eat, Glory be to Thee oh Lord. Amen…”
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