This is a continuation of a previous post, click here if you haven’t read it or if you don’t recall what it was about😉.
Facing an opposition while having a 50% chance of failing is a risk on its own. Having to avoid all the distractions on the way is another battle entirely. 5th of March this year, I was determined, focused and definite I could level this mountain with no scars. Little wars sprung up and I turned out victorious with little efforts. This so called mountain felt so easy to defeat. What was the big deal about it anyway?
Time kept passing away, I even forgot for a moment that I had a mountain to face. Everything went on hold, it felt like the world was now moving at a slow pace and time was now in my favour.
As the journey continued, I got closer and started to see the peak of this high mountain from afar off. It’s a good thing I’m getting closer to it, right? But seeing it moving nearer and nearer by the minute started to build up fear and anxiety which I tried to avoid. As it got closer, it got bigger.
When you have so many people who believe that you can do it, who are boasting about you even before it’s over, the pressure on you definitely increases by the day. The “what ifs” begins to overwhelm your confidence and you start to question if you can actually do this. You begin wishing and praying for it to be over or that it never even started at all.
So many things try to get your attention, to steal your focus away and you see yourself leaning towards them. But that little voice at the back keeps telling you, “don’t forget the mountain that’s still waiting ahead, don’t lose focus.” You reply to it, “I know, I know,” but within you, you feel like you’re moving backwards and start to develop doubts.
No one ever said leveling a mountain was going to be easy. So many obstacles will raise forces against you, but you also have to fight back.
To be continued…